Now Mothers day is over...

Seems to always be around this time, were i cant stop thinking about my Dad! With mothers day that just past and with fathers day coming up its kinda sad. I never had a relationship with him like i wanted to, and i never agreed with the things hes done, but i still and will always know him as MY DAD! I have little memories about him, how he use to put me to sleep while listening to jazz, or how we use to go to the park and on our walk back we would have a acorn fight... i use to fuck im up on our acorn fights. He wasnt the perfect person in the world but i always knew in my heart that he tried to be a father, i could be wrong but when he was around he was the best father i could ever ask for. Sucks cause when i hear people talk about their dads and how much they hate him and shit like that, i always say in my head " your lucky you have a dad"

I mean i do have father figures in my live that i love dearly, but it really isnt the same. Ugh wedding hits me the hardest, Ill never have a real father daughter dance. It kills me!
But on the positive size. i have Brandon that will give me love that no other man will ever give me, i have uncle rod that will give me the protection that no man will ever give me and i have papa that will give me the wisdom that no other man will ever give me. So i know im blessed no matter wat. I just really want my Dad to know that i will always love him no matter wat harsh words ive said to him or about him, and to know that i WILL NEVER FORGET HIM! i Love you Dad. RIP